Piece by Piece. 3 Heartbreaks By Mermerizone Dedicated To the one who made me from the worst to the best.

NOTE : THIS IS MY FIRST DRAMATIC STORY SO BEAR WITH ME. THIS IS ABOUT HOW A TYPICAL BEING HANDLE HIS HEARTBREAKS. AND THIS IS ALSO FICTION MIXED WITH A HINT OF REALITY ;)

I am not fond of sharing drama cause it is cheesy. But here goes.....

It was the 2nd week of middle school. 1st grade. My eyes were all teary when my parents decided to leave me alone since I was big enough to handle myself. But I wasn't used to it. I was afraid of older bullies. I was afraid of getting lost. I was afraid of a new atmosphere I was about to begin with. I was left innocent, afraid and weak in a world that wasn't familiar.
 And then someone caught my eye. She was the reason why the urge of going to school lingered within me. She was also innocent, pure and has gorgeous eyes.

3 years passed and we still never noticed each other. Not a "hi" or even a smile. We were just completely different people with different cliques.
In the times you forget my entire existence, I was left nurturing my feelings for you. Which is entirely unfair.

Another 3 years passed and finally. I would graduate middle school. Everything was the same. My routine being smooth and all. I wasn't that kind of person who would stick his eyeballs all the time at a phone. Back then, I was just a typical nerd. The phone given to me was meant for emergencies, and not for leisure. Everyday was normal, I remained the perfect child to my parents, I stood for what I believe in which is God. I was serious to my studies for I want to reach my goal in life. I was ready to move to another level. I was ready to accept my diploma. I was ready to get my goals.

March of 2014. There was an interruption. A beautiful interruption.

PLOP- My Ringtone

You said hi. I said hello. That was the first long conversation I had with you yet, it wasn't face to face. I firmly believe back then that having a relationship with you was possible.

I giggled throughout the night just back reading all of the memories we made. On the phone of course. For the first time in history, a weakling like me acted so strong in front of you even if my capabilities were limited.

I had a heart illness back then. Yes I told some people but in a jokingly manner.

I never wanted to appear so weak to the people that see me as a jolly individual.

Yes, our texting lasted forever. There wasn't a day that I would not greet you.

It's funny because at school we remained quiet but with our phones we become as loud as we possibly could.

I could not forget the day, when I decided to confess but you did it first. I was flushing. Since then, the nerd made himself cool. Running for the school council, Joining school fests and became funnier to catch your attention.

We became closer than ever before. Catching glimpses at class. Going to the same destination even if one of us does not have to do something in that particular place. And hoping that the teacher could pair us in any activity.

I didn't care back then, I only cared about you. I snatched loads of money from my parents  just to get access by texting you. I didn't join my squad more often. I slept late at night and always forgot to pray.

I did that just for you.

My grades stumbled down. My goal to get a scholarship was cancelled.

I wasn't sorry for the people who expected so much about me. Who rooted for me. Who treated my as a special person in times of ups and downs. My colleagues, my friends and especially my parents. BECAUSE I WAS HAPPY WITH YOU.

My parents did scold me, but for the first time, I learned how to fight back. I did not do those things before. I wasn't a child of terror. I thought I was hurting everyone. But I ended hurting myself. And that was my first heartbreak.

Summer of 2013, you suddenly faded away. I heard you got a boyfriend. But who was I to get jealous when in the first place, we didn't end up with each other.

Hearing the news, I broke down in tears. Yes I cried, I did not know that I developed my feelings for you.

I realized that when I was so serious, you were flirting with somebody else. I just wasted my time for someone that didn't care. I sacrificed all of my everything just for her. Just for us to get closer. That was my second heartbreak.

Then reality came to me. "BATA PA AKO".

Finally, we reached highschool. You were also there, giggling with your boyfriend. I find it hilarious when you two get in trouble at the guidance councilor's office.

Since then, I studied so hard I got into the top of the class. I wanted to prove to you that I am not as weak as you determined.

But I thought. "I WAS BEING IMMATURE." Why would I hate her if there was nothing between us.

So I decided to act normal when you were around. Treated you like how I treat my classmates. But my feelings could not resist. It was still alive.

I started texting you. You would reply normally.

As my feelings grew back, I started making your assignments, texting the answers, even if you did not request it. I comforted you in any problem. Convincing you to study.

I did not realize, I was falling into a trap. I made myself beneficial for you.

Your assignments. Your requests. I sometimes did it.

One day, I found out the two of you broke up and the reason is you. With so much people you incorporated your love with.

I woke up from fantasy and realized you have someone else and they were many, I became your victim. I again broke down. "WHY WAS I SO SERIOUS ?"

That was my last heartbreak. The most painful one yet the most beneficial one. It made me strong. It made me grow back to normal. The child my parents once had. The jolly person my friends used to laugh with and the typical nerd who wants to do life big.

I am happy now. Yes my heart was broken 3 times, piece by piece. But I found a new one. An armored one.

Thank you for the experience.